My Suburban Sprawl at The International Center of Photography 2019
I’m at the waterfront and I have a burning throat filled with chocolate I’m fantasizing about weathered down leather the kind that looks polished with grease and if I could I would hop on the ferry and get off in Times Square and walk to my friend apartment but its a holiday today its Easter and I lied to my parents and told them I was sick so I didn't have to go see them and I feel terrible but I can't bring myself to go because I"m haunted by my hometown I can't stay there for more than one day I always feel terrible plus I haven't seen my mom in over a month and she got a haircut that my dad says looks like Mary Tyler Moore. This might sound neurotic but that's because I am neurotic changes change things and I can't handle that especially in the suburbs where out of the ordinary stands out like a sore thumb people hide behind their doors because nobody is checking on them because nobody cares so people keep to themselves and the sad truth is that people get trapped here it’s so isolating that's there's no chance for transformation they will rot here and I’d probably rot here with them too.
My Suburban Sprawl is a documentary made up of photographs taken in and around New Jersey and stories written about my heavy-hearted teenage years. A town located fifty miles west of New York City, Morristown, is full of strip malls and it is the headquarters of pharmaceutical and healthcare giants like Novartis, Phizen, Bayer, and Colgate-Palmolive. It has the second highest income per capita.
But this work is about another landscape altogether, one that exists beneath the surface of things. It’s about my friend Ingrid and drugs and failed family dinners. It’s about being a teenager and feeling boxed in and lying to your parents and finding freedom in the backseat of somebody’s black grand prixe in the Burger King parking lot. It’s about getting older.
Made up of forty black-and-white photographs and fifteen short vignettes, My Suburban Sprawl is told from my own personal perspective and its main themes would likely be listed as “dysfunction, isolation, and alienation.” In that sense, I suppose it’s probably something that a lot of people can identify with, whether you’re from a small town or not. This is where I was born and raised and I respect the place but it haunts me. My Suburban Sprawl is my attempt to do it justice.